its annoying how i cant be pissed off at you, just looking at you makes me happy and sad

because you are so close yet so far away

you are the reason i smile when there is no one around

you are the reason my heart stops aching

when i am alone i rather be with you

its like you are a part of me and never disturb that inner peace

till

you remind me how it just cant happen

the pain

is excruciating, it kills me more than any physical or  emotional pain i have ever witnessed

its doesn’t break my heart

but instead burns it to ashes

just to be resurrected by your smile again